If you’ve been following this blog for a while, you know I’m attempting to write a book. I haven’t really shared much beyond that. I’ve been skeptical, you see, of my ability to do it and am not yet completely confident anything substantial will come from doing it. But still, after some serious prodding (see also: encouragement) from people who I respect, I’m sticking with the idea and seeing what happens.

I have thoughts and ideas written all over the place. Bits and pieces of written works with no real direction are living in various word documents on my laptop, yet I have no real “plan” yet.

My motivation and vision is to help others who are going through what I did throughout the majority of my life so far… especially young girls. For the record: I had food, clothes, a roof over my head and a wonderful family while I was growing up, so by all aspects, life was good. But what most people don’t know – not even those closest to me – is how badly I struggled with self-image and severe introversion, in addition to my weight struggles throughout my childhood and young adulthood.

You guys know that I’ve made a transformation over the past few years, but the road to this really good place I’m in now was tough. I want other people going through this to not only know they aren’t alone… but that it’s possible to blast through it. I want to be that living, breathing, walking example that you CAN change yourself and become the person you’ve always wanted to be. That’s what motivates me. YOU’RE stories motivate me. And I want more than anything to return that favor.

When life gets bumpy, one of my favorite things to do is lose myself in music that stirs my soul. Soak myself in lyrics that pack a punch and make me think. One of my all-time favorites is P!nk and last night I got the chance to catch her Truth About Love Tour. What I love about her and her music is that she is a no bull-shit, this is how it is, I don’t give a shit what anyone thinks (yet she DOES care at the same time) type of artist. She pushes people out of their comfort zone in her lyrics, look and demeanor in order to make them THINK. I admire that. (And, I always say if you are offended by P!nk, you’re just not paying attention.)

I left the show last night feeling extremely motivated. Not just to start back in on writing more substantial material for a potential book… but also in my other goals. (My Operation: Abs has been re-ignited, for example.)

Drawing inspiration from those around you is a wonderful thing. Not just in musicians, authors or even random bloggers who are terrible dancers… but also in the people in your every day life. Doing so can spark insights into your own self and open up parts you didn’t know were there. They KEY, though, is to never, ever compare yourself to another person. Ever. You are unique. Your situation is unique. Take what you learn and figure out how to apply it to your life in a positive way. Discover YOUR way… but don’t be afraid to lean on those around you as you find your footing.

I did. And am thankful for each and every one of you who have helped me along the way.



  1. wildermanonrollingcreek · March 20, 2013

    Hey Awkward D … I am new at this blogging thing … I was asked to name about five bloggers that I would recommend to others … five bloggers who I think are writing some good blogs. I am nominating you for the Liebster Award … You are writing with depth and creativity that resonates.
    So, maybe you already have had the Liebster. Congrats. T

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